oh my gosh, i was thinking last nite when i was at the gym how i just have to quit smoking or i'm going to die soon (from a combination of working out and smoking and lung cancer and what not), and then i was all empowered, and i didn't go buy any smokes after dinner like i had planned....but then i started thinking about the whole situation, and i think i came close to having a minor panic attack over the fact that i don't think i can quit smoking, even though i really want to. cause half of me was like "think about the gym! think about your ability to work out and run and stuff!" but the other half was like "dude, you can't just up and quit, you're too weak to be able to do that." i'm not sure which half won out in the end, but i'm pretty sure it's the latter because i bought cigarettes today:( boo for maryann, she sucks, i know. but honestly, the withdrawal scares me. like, i have no idea how i'm going to handle it, and it's very frightening, and for those of you who are reading this and scoffing at me and my pathetic-ness, GO GET ADDICTED TO SOMETHING FOR 5 YEARS AND SEE HOW EASY IT IS FOR YOU TO GIVE IT UP IN A DAY, YOU ASSHOLES!!! sorry, that was my bitter self taking over for a sec...haven't had a cigarette in awhile;) haha, i'm so FUNNY!