i am definitely lacking the so called "christmas spirit" this year. i wonder why. maybe i'm on my period or something....for the whole holiday season. great.

i sort of feel like i've run out of things that i'm blessed with, thus thankful for, which is of course completely ridiculous and selfish of me to even think, but that's the only way i can explain my recent demeanor in relation to this time of year. i feel like i'm just reaching the peak of the mountain that i've been climbing, and from my vantage point i see my destination is instead really 30,000 miles away, not the previously-thought 13,000. that sentiment is mostly school-related, although not completely. i know i'll miss these days when i'm gone, but i've just spent way too much time here, and i'm ready to move on and start the said missing of my college days. i feel i'm ready for the real world, sucky as it is probably going to be.