i think my feelings can be best expressed in song lyrics, "SIDE" by the band Travis....

"oh i belive there's someone watching over you.
they're watching every single thing you say.
and when you die they'll set you down and take you through.
you'll realize one day
that the grass is always greener on the other side.
neighbor's got a new car that you wanna drive.
and when time is runnin out you wanna stay alive.
we all live under the same sky.
we all will live, we all will die.
there is no wrong, there is no right.
the circle only has one side."