why do i put myself in a position to just end up getting disappointed?? that still baffles me, but hopefuly soon i will loearn better and learen how to do ohterwise. i don't want ot stpend the rest of my life wishing and hopeing......i want to know what i want tand to get that. i'm ndrunik by the wya,m so this won't make much sense, but i promiste it is coming from somewhere. i odn't know, i'm tired and i want to go home and eat food and then go to bed. blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah