i'm so confused right now about what i want. i dont' really know which way to go, and what to do about certain things, and i would just love for things to go back to where they were when life was simple and people didn't have such a hold on me. sometimes i'd just like to be stuck on a deserted island where i can't impact anyone and they can't impact me. i think that would just be better sometimes. but i really dont' know. i mean, i guess that's the challenge of life and relationships and friendships, the unpredictability. but for once in my life, i'd like things to make some semblance of sense. ok, maybe not once in my life, but for my life as it is right now to make sense. there's just way too much going on in my "professional" life for me to have to deal with confusing shit in my personal life. but i'll just have to take it with a grain of salt i suppose. and honestly, not too sure if i used that idiom correctly, but oh well:) it's 2:30am and i'm half drunk, so i don't give a shit about proper usage of idioms:) but if anyone has the secret to a stress free, carefree life, give me the 411 already!!!! :P