i realized tonite that i really hate going to bed alone. i mean it's not even about having a guy there...it could be a roommate or the homeless man on the couch...a guy is significantly better than a homeless man, but you get the point. i'm fine during the day if i find myself alone, i rather enjoy my alone time. but there's just something about going to sleep by yourself....doesnt' make a lot of sense, does it? nights just seem to be very lonely times if you have no one there. well, i guess it just boils down to that whole co-dependance thing. i don't really know. but at least mike understands my coil if no one else does:) argh, i just hate feeling shit like this, but i can't help but be pathetic, so at least let me wallow for a few, aight? and it was almost a perfect day.........oh well. diva