i think my feelings would best be expressed in song lyrics, once again, by travis. they really know how to put my depressive feelings into words:)

"we've been round block and we're getting on fine, but you don't know what i'm like.
and i looked at the clock and it was way past the line, still you don't know what i'm like.
well it's been a good time trying to have a good time, and for a time it really seemed ok.
you eventually lost and i'm happy because you don't know what i'm like.
you've lived in my shoes and you stayed in my flat, still you don't know what i'm like.
and it's you that will lose, what you think about that? cause you don't know what i'm like.
well it's been a good time trying to have a good time, and for a time it really seemed ok.
you eventually lost and i'm happy because you don't know what i'm like. and you don't know what i like.
now i'm on the tv and you're on the phone, still you don't know what i'm like.
and i found someone new and she's taking me home, cause she knows just what i like.
we've spent a good time and we had a good time, i think i found a place i wanna stay.
you eventually lost and i'm happy because you don't know what i'm like.
and you dont' know what i like, and you'll never know what i'm like."
-TRAVIS-

that's enough posting for one nite.