aaaaaaaaahhhhhh, if only i didn't have test this morning, i would go back to my bed and not leave it until 5 tonite:(

"baby, you've been going so crazy.
lately nothing seems to be going right.
solo, why'd you have to get so low?
you're so..you've been waiting in the sun too long.
but if you sing, sing, sing, sing sing sing.
for the love you bring won't mean a thing
unless you sing, sing, sing, sing."
-TRAVIS

katy, i heart you, you do so much for me and i don't tell you enough how much i appreciate it, so i'm posting it to the world!! mooooaaaaaahhh:)

wouldn't it be cool if i posted my blogs in german or something?? sprechen sie deutsch?? nein, nein!!

hooray for maryann feeling better.....speaking of feeling better, guess what everyone?? carrot top is coming to the iu auditorium!! you heard me right, folks, so grab your shotguns and uzis, and let's kill some trolls!!!!!

on a different note, i believe i could potentially become an alcoholic. cheers!

well after blowing my nose red and raw, i have decided that this week is also going to blow (haha). not only because i'm sick and i hate being sick, but because of the precedent that was this weekend. i think that i'm going to adopt a new rule that i can't get drunk around certain people when i have issues about that person. i think the majority of you know who i'm talking about, so we won't get into names and finger-pointing. anyway, so i said some things that i shouldn't have said, and i think i reached a new low of pathetic, and now i'm slowly trying to make my way out of the hole i dug for myself. basically i had a meltdown, and i'm sure there will be many more to come, but next time i hope to indulge only myself and no one else in my emotional instability. i just want to bag the self-pity and self-loathing, and move onto bigger and better things for myself, but habits are hard to break, wouldn't you agree? i have a good life, and good people around me, and it's time to start focusing on that and put aside constant anxiety and worry. not eliminate it, mind you, but put it aside until it's time to focus on it. now i'm not saying i'm going to just stop worrying about stuff, but hopefully i can make a few adjustments and try not to suck in people around me into this void of bad attitudes.

"i read it all, every word
and i still dont' understand a thing.
what had you heard?
what had you heard, was it love, was it take another walk in the dark.
you'll never learn.
i'd pray to god if there was heaven, but heaven seems so very far from here.
and it all boils down to the same old thing.
just a yin and a yang and a couple of pipe dreams.
and it all boils down to the same old pain.
whether you win or you lose isn't gonna change a single thing."-TRAVIS

why is it that when things are going good for me, i open my mouth and say something stupid and fuck everything up? AND why is it when i'm sick and i need to rest and get better, i go out and get drunk instead? i think it all just goes back to the fact that i'm a moron. yeah, sounds about right.