ugh, thank God this week is over!!!!!! worst 2 weeks of my life!! i'm ready to get piss drunk this weekend and make a total fool of myself for everyone's viewing pleasure:) mooooaaah.

on another note, i was talking with jong today in class, and he's trying to convince me to go to grad school and get my masters. hmm, well i told him i didnt' have the money and didnt' really have much motivation to do so, but the more i thought about it, the more i might want to go, just so i can get that degree under my belt and make more money when i finally get a job. a year in grad school isn't that daunting of a task, granted, but i'm so fucking sick of school right now, i think i'd definitely have to wait a year to come back. but i don't wanna have to move back here again once i've moved home :( i hate moving. but yeah, so i'm tentatively thinking about grad school now.....who would've thought?? certainly not me. damn those persuasive asian graduate students :P

i am definitely lacking the so called "christmas spirit" this year. i wonder why. maybe i'm on my period or something....for the whole holiday season. great.

i sort of feel like i've run out of things that i'm blessed with, thus thankful for, which is of course completely ridiculous and selfish of me to even think, but that's the only way i can explain my recent demeanor in relation to this time of year. i feel like i'm just reaching the peak of the mountain that i've been climbing, and from my vantage point i see my destination is instead really 30,000 miles away, not the previously-thought 13,000. that sentiment is mostly school-related, although not completely. i know i'll miss these days when i'm gone, but i've just spent way too much time here, and i'm ready to move on and start the said missing of my college days. i feel i'm ready for the real world, sucky as it is probably going to be.