i also feel the need to get a few things clear....right now, i'm in a fucked up place and my head is full of nonsense and stuff, and if i am angry or moody, or mean (excluding when i drink, cause apparently i'm mean when i'm drunk anyway) towards you, try not to take it personally. unless i'm actually angry with you for specific reasons, then you're in trouble :P but just an f.y.i. for anyone who cares. but don't fret, i won't be a ball of hormonal emotions for long!

just wanted to say happy easter to everyone! hope you get lots of candy from the easter bunny:P

ok, i've come to a decision....let's just hope i can go thru with it and it doesn't go awry! on a lighter note, i was drinking wine today in the middle of the day!! maryann = WACKY!! heehee.

last nite was jakey's birthday celebration at o'charleys, and i just have to say, i've NEVER spent so much money on myself for dinner. my dinner ended up costing me a total of $23.00!!!! holy shit maryann, you're so huge.......or you're such a wino, one of the two:) who the hell charges $4.75 for a glass of wine??? well maryann, o'charleys does apparently. GOO. anyway, now that it's thursday, i'm feeling much better than i was last nite. i'd just like to give a holla to my good friend j-mike, for giving me cheery words and trying to make me feel better, despite the fact that i was a little bitter when last we spoke. and i would like to tell kate that she's the smartest woman in the world with her wise words and witty repertoire. but it's all bygones...now i just need to figure some shit out, and everything will be A-ok. well, A-ok for the time being :P

disappointment has to be the worst feeling in the world.

"i'm so lonely/ God won't know me/ i can hardly get up/ i sold my halo back in april/ now i can't open heaven/ so ring out the bell/ i'll fly where there's someone to tell/ my shoulders are colder since i fell/ someone see me/ feel me breathing/ someone get me home soon/ if i see sunrise/ and screw up my eyes/ i dont' feel so lonesome/ so ring out the bell/ i'll fly where there's someone to tell/ my shoulders are colder since i fell/ i'm doing fine/ i'm getting by/ tell me what i should do/ God knows why i'm watching the sky/ it is so blue/ one fine morning/ without warning/ i'll go thru the blue sky/ until i do i'll wait for you/ so i can get this right/ so ring out the bell/ i'll fly where there's someone to tell/ my shoulders are colder since i fell/ so ring out the bell/ i'll fly where there's someone to tell/ my shoulders are colder since i fell." -travis-

i haven't posted in awhile, which is quite a deviation from my usual multiple postings per day, but i just havent' been in the mood to do so. oh well. anyway, last jac kegger last nite, i have to say it was a great time:) no run-ins with "dick shine" as bob so lovingly refers to the bastard who always gives me shit at jac parties. lots of dancing and having a good time, AND my brother was there. how great:) anyways, that's all i have to say for now, i'm all tapped out.