"and i could never change you.
i don't wanna blame you.
baby you don't have to take the fall.
yes i may have hurt you
but i did not desert you.
maybe i just wanna have it all.
it makes a sound like thunder.
it makes me feel like rain.
and like a fool who will never see the truth
i keep thinking something's change.

there's a danger in loving somebody too much.
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
there's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
baby, sometimes love just ain't enough."

once again i was woken up this morning in tears from a horrible dream i had. but there were no mountain men in this one--my subconcious decided to torture me with dreams of things that could actually happen...

i'm officially miserable.

did i really just sit at my computer for 2 hours on a msg board?? oh God i'm a geek.

there's this guy that i work with who reminds me of my horrible ex boyfriend in a few ways, and it's so weird because he's such a funny nice guy, but at certain points when he's acting like my ex, i just stop and all these bad memories come rushing up. i should just tell him to never laugh (cause he laughs just like my ex did). but that would be no fun.

ATTN: SHIPLEY, JAKE, PAT, ET AL.

I SWEAR IF YOU PLAY ANY KIND OF SICK JOKES ON ME AS PER THE MOVIE WRONG TURN I WILL CUT YOU. THANK YOU.

as i'm sitting here about ready to post, i suddenly swooned and almost passed out. weird.

i just read the phrase "bloggity goodness" on the blogger website. indeed.

i'm tired of being a humanitarian. i just want to strip for my income. not really, but it's a viable backup plan:)